5 days ago, my birthday. I asked him to sing a birthday song with his guitar, but he refused.
Not even a single birthday story posted in his IG. While few weeks earlier, he did to his friends.
He was talking with me on the phone, then his friends came. Suddenly, the call ended as if I was nothing.
We were watching movie together, then from a far, he saw his colleagues were on the same cinema as us. Without hesitation, he left me walking alone.
I was so scared prior to undergo a “medical treatment”. Instead of try to comforting, he threatened to leave me.
He chose me, then as the consequences, his friends were avoiding him. I thought that should be a sign that they’re toxic and time to find new real friends. Instead, he counts that as his “extra effort” to be with me.
I always kept hidden. Hidden from his family, colleagues, friends, except few of them. While the other couples out there struggle to step up into the next level of commitment, I still struggle with being hidden.
We were planned to have a christmas dinner. Table booked since months ago. Suddenly he cancelled due to “unexpected issues” that actually not an issue if he was really looking forward to it.
I was so stressed out and asking for his companion. I knew he was busy at that time so I waited. He reached me out in the next morning. He was distracted and forgot, he said. Turned out, he was distracted by other girl.
He promised me to not call, video call, hanging out or any other contact with that other girl. Turned out, he still called her many times after he made the promise.
Things that make me happy:
He accompanying me until I slept.
His presence.
He always gives me kisses and hugs before he on a flight.
He chose me.
He travelled the world with me.
He bought me things despite his financial condition.
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